I just want a day of solitude. A day of not necessarily doing anything but just a day where I can relax.

I do not know how to relax. Since I’ve started school, I don’t know what relaxing looks like. I miss meditating. I miss just the feeling of being here and just…

The ocean analogy. It’s that. That’s all I can say. I have a lot on my mind and I find it more difficult to function when I’m mentally exhausted than physically exhausted.



Oh god…

Last night I had a dream that my ex died. I woke up this morning feeling horrible. I feel so heavy right now. And tired. It was one of those dreams that felt so real.

I searched the meaning cause I’m like that sometimes.

Turns out it’s a positive meaning, just an awful dream.

I think it’s because I’m really starting to dig someone. Even her best friend is no longer saying … “if you guys get into a relationship…” instead she is saying “when you guys get into a relationship…”

I still have a lot to think about though but my feelings have definitely gotten stronger. We’re just not sure how she feels about the situation but I think it’s safe to say that we’re both enjoying each other’s company.