My friend and I worked on music the other night. The video above is a track I started just then.
I got a few of my co workers to listen to a voice memo from the session my friend and I had the other night. We worked on melodies mainly cause I think melodies is the most important thing when it comes to music.
Anyway, I whipped out my old laptop cause it had most of the music I had made over the years. My friend was like fuck, Lorena, you can literally make anything and I don’t know why you haven’t put yourself out there.
Cause I’m not really someone who wants to be in the limelight. But, yeah maybe I have to start taking myself more seriously and really make a big effort when it comes to the music I made. I know I’m good enough but I’m just my own biggest enemy at the same time cause I’m always like… fuck what if like two people only like my music? What am I gonna do?
But… I think it doesn’t matter whether people like it or not, music was and still is my passion. It saved my life at one point.
It’s been nice just being able to sit in front of my laptop to make music again and just be present. I think that’s what I missed for so long.
I rarely made time to work on music for the past three years since I got back from that U.S roadtrip. I remember writing a post like 3 years ago saying I just feel so lost and that I’ve fallen out of love with music. No wonder why I got so depressed because ultimately music makes me so happy and when you take away the things that make you happy, well you’re not gonna be happy.
So, it’s nice to have rekindled my love affair with music. After all these years, maybe it’s gonna be the one thing that’ll save me again.
Dang, that was deep.