Dang, I feel so conflicted about this situation. I’m looking forward to my studies so I can be occupied again.
Also, I really miss meditating. I do look back and see the difference it makes. I need me some Deepak Chopra guided meditation everyday.
I’ll get a calendar and tick off any day that I meditate. I must tell myself that even five minutes is ok. Ten minutes is also ok. Any moment to surrender and just be present and just to sit still with my mind means everything to me.